Investing or Checking?

Some of you know that my favorite, favorite TV/movie/book series is Star Trek, primarily, the original series.  I began watching it the year it began (with much argument with parental rules about bedtimes) and continue to be a Trekker to this day.  In one of my favorite Trek novels, Spock’s World by Diane Duane, Spock, Kirk, and Dr. McCoy are in a discussion (as usual) about the differences between humans and Vulcans. McCoy complains about the inability to translate certain words. Spock tries to explain to McCoy that it is not a word, per se, that McCoy is trying to understand, but an concept – that Vulcans, unlike humans,  have the ‘direct experience of the being or force responsible for the creation and maintenance of the Universe’ and that they ‘experience that presence directly and constantly.’ McCoy and Kirk are somewhat shocked and observe that the Vulcans appear to be in possession of what humans have been seeking for millennia.

In my reading pile just now is a book by A. W. Tozer called The Pursuit of God*.  I have not finished yet, but Tozer’s premise for writing is that Christians have the ability to have that experience as well, to end that seeking.  “The greatest fact of the tabernacle was that Jehovah was there, a Presence was waiting within the veil,” as he writes.  Tozer goes on to say that we, our ‘selfs,’ are the veil that now hides the living presence of God from us.  Tozer shows how “a loving Personality” is evident throughout the Bible – walking in the Garden, speaking with Moses and Abraham, and teaching and calling the disciples and us.

So this is a challenge for each who calls himself a Christian – to seek after that personal, direct relationship with God.  We use a lot of words sometimes to describe discipleship, we often use traditions and rituals to convince ourselves we’re doing it right, but the truth is that we get in our own way more often than not.  Instead of focusing on developing a friendship, a connection with God by spending TIME with him, we rush through our daily quota – read this many verses/chapters, read this devotional in the morning, that at night, prayer for this request or that.  STOP!  Stop and smell the roses!  Friendships are built by investing, not in accomplishing a to-do list.  Slow down.  Savor. Get to know God, get to know Jesus, the same way you got to know your best earthly friend – by talking, laughing, crying together.

The psalmist speaks about this living God, long before Jesus came, died, and rose to live forever:

  As a deer pants for flowing streams, so pants my soul for you, O God.  My soul thirsts for God, for the living God. When shall I come and appear before God?  Psalm 42:1-2


So are you investing your time into developing a close, intimate relationship with Jesus, or are you merely checking off the items on your to-do list?  Only one option with have eternal consequences.  Choose wisely.

*The Pursuit of God, A. W. Tozer, Tozer Legacy Edition, copyright 1982, Christian Publications, Inc.


Do You?

​Jesus said to her, “I am the resurrection and the life.[d] Whoever believes in me, though he die, yet shall he live,26 and everyone who lives and believes in me shall never die. Do you believe this?” – John 11:25-26 

“Do you believe?”  YES and AMEN!


Why, God?

 So the law is paralyzed, and justice never goes forth.  For the wicked surround the righteous; so justice goes forth perverted. 

“Look among the nations, and see; wonder and be astounded.  For I am doing a work in your days that you would not believe if told. 

Habakkuk 1:4-5

Habakkuk dared ask God Almighty, “Why?”  Why he called out for justice, and saw none. Why he alone (or so it seemed) saw the sinfulness and iniquity around him. Why there was violence and disregard for the law.

Was God angry at Habakkuk for asking for answers? No, He welcome the fact that Habakkuk turned to Him rather than human understanding for answers. But neither did God answer the why; rather God said, “Look and see the things that I, the Lord, am doing all around you.” 

We don’t always see the way God works, nor do we know the reasons behind all He does, but we can see a glimpse into why He seems to delay (at least according to our standards.)  We read: 

 The Lord is not slow to fulfill his promise as some count slowness, but is patient toward you, not wishing that any should perish, but that all should reach repentance. – 2 Peter 3:9 

 Not wish that any should perish! Amazing! God desires everyone be saved through repentance and belief in the saving gift of Jesus’ death and resurrection! 

Something to think about in this Easter season.



Spring is coming.  Slowly, ever so slowly this year. Partly it’s the weather, partly it’s the winter in my soul.

But the sun is trying to shine outside finally, the temperatures are rising about 60 (sometimes.)  And the Son has me secure in his arms as always.

It’s funny how the little things affect me these days.  I was hanging around waiting to leave to meet a friend and see a movie last week, and started to be overwhelmed with anxiety and panic.  Another day I saw a neighbor outside, and she called over that whe would stop to say goodbye before she moved later in the week, and I began to dread having someone ring my doorbell.  Why?

I think it’s because, since Steve’s death, I lost my safety cushion, my anchor.  I realized as I thought about it that the last time I really became panicked about going out or meeting people was before Steve and I met.

But God is always good, and when I remember to count the blessings I’ve had, when I choose to remember God’s love and grace and mercy, the sun peeks out a little more and a little more.

flowers in snow