I find it hard to focus. Still. It’s been 6 months since my world fell apart, and I still struggle to focus. On anything. Reading. Knitting. Blogging. Eating the right foods. Anything.
I spend too much time mindlessly playing computer games, scrolling through Facebook. Mindless.
It’s easier to not think, not cry, not miss my Pooh when being mindless. But it’s not healthy. I need to honor God with everything I do, not just existing but living well. I need to honor Steve by carrying on and doing it well.
I don’t know what’s next, how it will all turn out, but I know that I do not walk alone. I may need to keep reminding myself, but I know Jesus walks with me every minute of every day, carrying me when I can’t go on, lifting me up when weighed down by it all. Thank you, LORD, for you constant care and presence.